Janury 29, 2026: 12:09 AMMood: 
Song: so alive - love and rockets
seeing the birthday massacre today!
they're touring with wednesday 13 and another band which i... don't care for, but i'm seeing them technically today, it's only a bit past midnight. i wonder if i'll be able to meet any cool people there? i actually crimped my hair for the occasion, since i've been wanting to but am too afraid of damage (my hair is as healthy as courtney love's) i figured a special occasion is fine. i otherwise don't even use heat on my hair.
guess who spontaneously got really obsessed with bauhaus since i've last updated the site. yeppppp... the graphic icon for this update was made by me a few days ago though! i adore daniel ash so i had to.
i updated my list of artists on the info page, and added a cool site's button to the bottom of the main page (check out the website!) i actually removed some artists as well, but eh. taste changes and what can i do? probably nothing because of how my autism affects my interests 
also did someone hex peter murphy's sexy photos from the 80s so that you never get an appetite again if you look at it? because i'm typically immune to that type of inspiration but i have hardly eaten anything and it feels great; so if so thanks i guess, who knows maybe i'll end up with a body like his
also love and rockets is one of the most gay sounding band names i've ever heard. NOT complaining though
Janury 4, 2026: 7:07 PMMood: 
Song: sturm - front line assembly
i'm still super sick and have a few fractured ribs. lol.
so i've been updating my site slower than usual. but i got a new computer, and it's great. it's running linux ubuntu, which i'm really liking so far as a previous lifelong windows user. i rewatched death note, and i can still see why i was obsessed with that show when i was younger. speaking as someone who doesn't care for anime, by the way, i hate a lot of them.
anyway, i figured out how to glitch one of my cameras so that the lighting turns out green. i'll share photos on the photography page of my site eventually, but for now here is a joke one of them i took so you get an idea. lol.
also really can't believe it's 2026. yuck.
December 22, 2025: 10:26 PMMood: 
Song: crack the liar's smile - drain sth
still sick! i woke up at like 4pm today and pretty much immediately went to the music store looking like a fucking mess since i had no time to get ready, past basic hygiene practices at least....
typically i find nothing, but i found horror wrestling by drain sth!! which is insane. i don't even know anyone who's heard of that band. and i live in the middle of fucking nowhere so i'm just wondering who the hell gave a drain cd to the tiny music store here. never even looked for drain and i thought i misread the name.
these are the cds i got:
drain sth - horror wrestling 
duran duran - wedding album stabbing westward - wither blister burn & peel
my life's been so fucking lame lately since i've been sick, so this is an awesome change for once. i'm so fucking happy with the cds i gottt 
won't you set me free?
December 21, 2025: 4:34 PMMood: 
Song: genkai haretsu - hide
i can't eat chocolate because i'm sick
for some reason around christmas time, though i don't really celebrate so this is probably related to the fact, i always feel like listening to japanese rock and metal. particularly the 90s stuff i grew up with. at the moment this isn't something i'm super proud of, as all of the people listening to stuff like that are annoying children, since it seems to be trending online... so i'm certainly not interested in having a discussion about it. but some of it is a lot better than what i am willing to admit.
i'm no longer feverish, but my dreams haven't realized that because they've continually been absolutely insane since i slept with a fever lol. in my dream last night, i stole a bunch of (awesome) clothes from someone, which seemed mostly like lip service type of designs, and someone who knew the owner of the clothes, as a consequence, turned me into a bowling ball. huh.
oh, and i've continued to lie about my name in random situations, i find it quite enjoyable. since i've been coughing a lot there's always a thought in the back of my mind that i'm going to cough up blood or something... i guess that would make for some cool photos though?
also, i finally added a favicon for this site. just something i made in MS paint 98, i think? i'm not sure the version, but you get the idea. some dinosaur version. 
i'm thinking the next page i'll make on here will be related to shady old websites. i love the old internet sooo much. if only i didn't suck at coding lol
this is my therapy
December 4, 2025: 10:17 PMMood: 
Song: my lover's box - garbage
i have finally created a blog/publicized journal page for my website! it isn't ideal, but it works, and has the vibe down, so i'm good.
today i lied about my name, and it was awesome! i'm not sure what i enjoyed about it, i suppose i just enjoy the idea of being so separated from myself that i'm an entirely different person. that's fun, isn't it? 
i've had this website for over a year now, so in case it wasn't already entirely obvious, i'm outright admitting now that i know absolutely nothing about any type of coding whatsoever--html, CSS, i have no clue, so don't even get me started on more complex coding languages, lol. i simply refuse not to have a personal page solely out of stubbornness, which is cool.
about a week ago now, i got rid of my smartphone, an iphone 14+, and replaced it with a nokia. i'll add some photos of that onto the site once i have some taken--currently i can only do so with my digital camera... and then also upload said, hypothetical photo onto my computer for my site.
i swear that i blinked, and twenty days passed. i thought that yesterday, and now twenty one have passed in an instant. huh.
i'm afraid i'll never get to heaven
Mood:
Song: so alive - love and rockets
seeing the birthday massacre today!
they're touring with wednesday 13 and another band which i... don't care for, but i'm seeing them technically today, it's only a bit past midnight. i wonder if i'll be able to meet any cool people there? i actually crimped my hair for the occasion, since i've been wanting to but am too afraid of damage (my hair is as healthy as courtney love's) i figured a special occasion is fine. i otherwise don't even use heat on my hair.
guess who spontaneously got really obsessed with bauhaus since i've last updated the site. yeppppp... the graphic icon for this update was made by me a few days ago though! i adore daniel ash so i had to.
i updated my list of artists on the info page, and added a cool site's button to the bottom of the main page (check out the website!) i actually removed some artists as well, but eh. taste changes and what can i do? probably nothing because of how my autism affects my interests
also did someone hex peter murphy's sexy photos from the 80s so that you never get an appetite again if you look at it? because i'm typically immune to that type of inspiration but i have hardly eaten anything and it feels great; so if so thanks i guess, who knows maybe i'll end up with a body like his
also love and rockets is one of the most gay sounding band names i've ever heard. NOT complaining though
Janury 4, 2026: 7:07 PMMood:
Song: sturm - front line assembly
i'm still super sick and have a few fractured ribs. lol.
so i've been updating my site slower than usual. but i got a new computer, and it's great. it's running linux ubuntu, which i'm really liking so far as a previous lifelong windows user. i rewatched death note, and i can still see why i was obsessed with that show when i was younger. speaking as someone who doesn't care for anime, by the way, i hate a lot of them.
anyway, i figured out how to glitch one of my cameras so that the lighting turns out green. i'll share photos on the photography page of my site eventually, but for now here is a joke one of them i took so you get an idea. lol.
also really can't believe it's 2026. yuck.
December 22, 2025: 10:26 PMMood:
Song: crack the liar's smile - drain sth
still sick! i woke up at like 4pm today and pretty much immediately went to the music store looking like a fucking mess since i had no time to get ready, past basic hygiene practices at least....
typically i find nothing, but i found horror wrestling by drain sth!! which is insane. i don't even know anyone who's heard of that band. and i live in the middle of fucking nowhere so i'm just wondering who the hell gave a drain cd to the tiny music store here. never even looked for drain and i thought i misread the name.
these are the cds i got:
drain sth - horror wrestling duran duran - wedding album stabbing westward - wither blister burn & peel
my life's been so fucking lame lately since i've been sick, so this is an awesome change for once. i'm so fucking happy with the cds i gottt
won't you set me free?
December 21, 2025: 4:34 PMMood:
Song: genkai haretsu - hide
i can't eat chocolate because i'm sick
for some reason around christmas time, though i don't really celebrate so this is probably related to the fact, i always feel like listening to japanese rock and metal. particularly the 90s stuff i grew up with. at the moment this isn't something i'm super proud of, as all of the people listening to stuff like that are annoying children, since it seems to be trending online... so i'm certainly not interested in having a discussion about it. but some of it is a lot better than what i am willing to admit.
i'm no longer feverish, but my dreams haven't realized that because they've continually been absolutely insane since i slept with a fever lol. in my dream last night, i stole a bunch of (awesome) clothes from someone, which seemed mostly like lip service type of designs, and someone who knew the owner of the clothes, as a consequence, turned me into a bowling ball. huh.
oh, and i've continued to lie about my name in random situations, i find it quite enjoyable. since i've been coughing a lot there's always a thought in the back of my mind that i'm going to cough up blood or something... i guess that would make for some cool photos though?
also, i finally added a favicon for this site. just something i made in MS paint 98, i think? i'm not sure the version, but you get the idea. some dinosaur version.
i'm thinking the next page i'll make on here will be related to shady old websites. i love the old internet sooo much. if only i didn't suck at coding lol
this is my therapy
December 4, 2025: 10:17 PMMood:
Song: my lover's box - garbage
i have finally created a blog/publicized journal page for my website! it isn't ideal, but it works, and has the vibe down, so i'm good.
today i lied about my name, and it was awesome! i'm not sure what i enjoyed about it, i suppose i just enjoy the idea of being so separated from myself that i'm an entirely different person. that's fun, isn't it?
i've had this website for over a year now, so in case it wasn't already entirely obvious, i'm outright admitting now that i know absolutely nothing about any type of coding whatsoever--html, CSS, i have no clue, so don't even get me started on more complex coding languages, lol. i simply refuse not to have a personal page solely out of stubbornness, which is cool.
about a week ago now, i got rid of my smartphone, an iphone 14+, and replaced it with a nokia. i'll add some photos of that onto the site once i have some taken--currently i can only do so with my digital camera... and then also upload said, hypothetical photo onto my computer for my site.
i swear that i blinked, and twenty days passed. i thought that yesterday, and now twenty one have passed in an instant. huh.
i'm afraid i'll never get to heaven
Mood:
Song: sturm - front line assembly
i'm still super sick and have a few fractured ribs. lol.
so i've been updating my site slower than usual. but i got a new computer, and it's great. it's running linux ubuntu, which i'm really liking so far as a previous lifelong windows user. i rewatched death note, and i can still see why i was obsessed with that show when i was younger. speaking as someone who doesn't care for anime, by the way, i hate a lot of them.
anyway, i figured out how to glitch one of my cameras so that the lighting turns out green. i'll share photos on the photography page of my site eventually, but for now here is a joke one of them i took so you get an idea. lol.
also really can't believe it's 2026. yuck.
December 22, 2025: 10:26 PMMood:
Song: crack the liar's smile - drain sth
still sick! i woke up at like 4pm today and pretty much immediately went to the music store looking like a fucking mess since i had no time to get ready, past basic hygiene practices at least....
typically i find nothing, but i found horror wrestling by drain sth!! which is insane. i don't even know anyone who's heard of that band. and i live in the middle of fucking nowhere so i'm just wondering who the hell gave a drain cd to the tiny music store here. never even looked for drain and i thought i misread the name.
these are the cds i got:
drain sth - horror wrestling duran duran - wedding album stabbing westward - wither blister burn & peel
my life's been so fucking lame lately since i've been sick, so this is an awesome change for once. i'm so fucking happy with the cds i gottt
won't you set me free?
December 21, 2025: 4:34 PMMood:
Song: genkai haretsu - hide
i can't eat chocolate because i'm sick
for some reason around christmas time, though i don't really celebrate so this is probably related to the fact, i always feel like listening to japanese rock and metal. particularly the 90s stuff i grew up with. at the moment this isn't something i'm super proud of, as all of the people listening to stuff like that are annoying children, since it seems to be trending online... so i'm certainly not interested in having a discussion about it. but some of it is a lot better than what i am willing to admit.
i'm no longer feverish, but my dreams haven't realized that because they've continually been absolutely insane since i slept with a fever lol. in my dream last night, i stole a bunch of (awesome) clothes from someone, which seemed mostly like lip service type of designs, and someone who knew the owner of the clothes, as a consequence, turned me into a bowling ball. huh.
oh, and i've continued to lie about my name in random situations, i find it quite enjoyable. since i've been coughing a lot there's always a thought in the back of my mind that i'm going to cough up blood or something... i guess that would make for some cool photos though?
also, i finally added a favicon for this site. just something i made in MS paint 98, i think? i'm not sure the version, but you get the idea. some dinosaur version.
i'm thinking the next page i'll make on here will be related to shady old websites. i love the old internet sooo much. if only i didn't suck at coding lol
this is my therapy
December 4, 2025: 10:17 PMMood:
Song: my lover's box - garbage
i have finally created a blog/publicized journal page for my website! it isn't ideal, but it works, and has the vibe down, so i'm good.
today i lied about my name, and it was awesome! i'm not sure what i enjoyed about it, i suppose i just enjoy the idea of being so separated from myself that i'm an entirely different person. that's fun, isn't it?
i've had this website for over a year now, so in case it wasn't already entirely obvious, i'm outright admitting now that i know absolutely nothing about any type of coding whatsoever--html, CSS, i have no clue, so don't even get me started on more complex coding languages, lol. i simply refuse not to have a personal page solely out of stubbornness, which is cool.
about a week ago now, i got rid of my smartphone, an iphone 14+, and replaced it with a nokia. i'll add some photos of that onto the site once i have some taken--currently i can only do so with my digital camera... and then also upload said, hypothetical photo onto my computer for my site.
i swear that i blinked, and twenty days passed. i thought that yesterday, and now twenty one have passed in an instant. huh.
i'm afraid i'll never get to heaven
Mood:
Song: crack the liar's smile - drain sth
still sick! i woke up at like 4pm today and pretty much immediately went to the music store looking like a fucking mess since i had no time to get ready, past basic hygiene practices at least....
typically i find nothing, but i found horror wrestling by drain sth!! which is insane. i don't even know anyone who's heard of that band. and i live in the middle of fucking nowhere so i'm just wondering who the hell gave a drain cd to the tiny music store here. never even looked for drain and i thought i misread the name.
these are the cds i got:
drain sth - horror wrestling duran duran - wedding album stabbing westward - wither blister burn & peel
my life's been so fucking lame lately since i've been sick, so this is an awesome change for once. i'm so fucking happy with the cds i gottt
won't you set me free?
December 21, 2025: 4:34 PMMood:
Song: genkai haretsu - hide
i can't eat chocolate because i'm sick
for some reason around christmas time, though i don't really celebrate so this is probably related to the fact, i always feel like listening to japanese rock and metal. particularly the 90s stuff i grew up with. at the moment this isn't something i'm super proud of, as all of the people listening to stuff like that are annoying children, since it seems to be trending online... so i'm certainly not interested in having a discussion about it. but some of it is a lot better than what i am willing to admit.
i'm no longer feverish, but my dreams haven't realized that because they've continually been absolutely insane since i slept with a fever lol. in my dream last night, i stole a bunch of (awesome) clothes from someone, which seemed mostly like lip service type of designs, and someone who knew the owner of the clothes, as a consequence, turned me into a bowling ball. huh.
oh, and i've continued to lie about my name in random situations, i find it quite enjoyable. since i've been coughing a lot there's always a thought in the back of my mind that i'm going to cough up blood or something... i guess that would make for some cool photos though?
also, i finally added a favicon for this site. just something i made in MS paint 98, i think? i'm not sure the version, but you get the idea. some dinosaur version.
i'm thinking the next page i'll make on here will be related to shady old websites. i love the old internet sooo much. if only i didn't suck at coding lol
this is my therapy
December 4, 2025: 10:17 PMMood:
Song: my lover's box - garbage
i have finally created a blog/publicized journal page for my website! it isn't ideal, but it works, and has the vibe down, so i'm good.
today i lied about my name, and it was awesome! i'm not sure what i enjoyed about it, i suppose i just enjoy the idea of being so separated from myself that i'm an entirely different person. that's fun, isn't it?
i've had this website for over a year now, so in case it wasn't already entirely obvious, i'm outright admitting now that i know absolutely nothing about any type of coding whatsoever--html, CSS, i have no clue, so don't even get me started on more complex coding languages, lol. i simply refuse not to have a personal page solely out of stubbornness, which is cool.
about a week ago now, i got rid of my smartphone, an iphone 14+, and replaced it with a nokia. i'll add some photos of that onto the site once i have some taken--currently i can only do so with my digital camera... and then also upload said, hypothetical photo onto my computer for my site.
i swear that i blinked, and twenty days passed. i thought that yesterday, and now twenty one have passed in an instant. huh.
i'm afraid i'll never get to heaven
Mood:
Song: genkai haretsu - hide
i can't eat chocolate because i'm sick
for some reason around christmas time, though i don't really celebrate so this is probably related to the fact, i always feel like listening to japanese rock and metal. particularly the 90s stuff i grew up with. at the moment this isn't something i'm super proud of, as all of the people listening to stuff like that are annoying children, since it seems to be trending online... so i'm certainly not interested in having a discussion about it. but some of it is a lot better than what i am willing to admit.
i'm no longer feverish, but my dreams haven't realized that because they've continually been absolutely insane since i slept with a fever lol. in my dream last night, i stole a bunch of (awesome) clothes from someone, which seemed mostly like lip service type of designs, and someone who knew the owner of the clothes, as a consequence, turned me into a bowling ball. huh.
oh, and i've continued to lie about my name in random situations, i find it quite enjoyable. since i've been coughing a lot there's always a thought in the back of my mind that i'm going to cough up blood or something... i guess that would make for some cool photos though?
also, i finally added a favicon for this site. just something i made in MS paint 98, i think? i'm not sure the version, but you get the idea. some dinosaur version.
i'm thinking the next page i'll make on here will be related to shady old websites. i love the old internet sooo much. if only i didn't suck at coding lol
this is my therapy
December 4, 2025: 10:17 PMMood:
Song: my lover's box - garbage
i have finally created a blog/publicized journal page for my website! it isn't ideal, but it works, and has the vibe down, so i'm good.
today i lied about my name, and it was awesome! i'm not sure what i enjoyed about it, i suppose i just enjoy the idea of being so separated from myself that i'm an entirely different person. that's fun, isn't it?
i've had this website for over a year now, so in case it wasn't already entirely obvious, i'm outright admitting now that i know absolutely nothing about any type of coding whatsoever--html, CSS, i have no clue, so don't even get me started on more complex coding languages, lol. i simply refuse not to have a personal page solely out of stubbornness, which is cool.
about a week ago now, i got rid of my smartphone, an iphone 14+, and replaced it with a nokia. i'll add some photos of that onto the site once i have some taken--currently i can only do so with my digital camera... and then also upload said, hypothetical photo onto my computer for my site.
i swear that i blinked, and twenty days passed. i thought that yesterday, and now twenty one have passed in an instant. huh.
i'm afraid i'll never get to heaven
Mood:
Song: my lover's box - garbage
i have finally created a blog/publicized journal page for my website! it isn't ideal, but it works, and has the vibe down, so i'm good.
today i lied about my name, and it was awesome! i'm not sure what i enjoyed about it, i suppose i just enjoy the idea of being so separated from myself that i'm an entirely different person. that's fun, isn't it?
i've had this website for over a year now, so in case it wasn't already entirely obvious, i'm outright admitting now that i know absolutely nothing about any type of coding whatsoever--html, CSS, i have no clue, so don't even get me started on more complex coding languages, lol. i simply refuse not to have a personal page solely out of stubbornness, which is cool.
about a week ago now, i got rid of my smartphone, an iphone 14+, and replaced it with a nokia. i'll add some photos of that onto the site once i have some taken--currently i can only do so with my digital camera... and then also upload said, hypothetical photo onto my computer for my site.
i swear that i blinked, and twenty days passed. i thought that yesterday, and now twenty one have passed in an instant. huh.
i'm afraid i'll never get to heaven